Tuesday, September 11, 2007
i guess..its better to end this relationship.Obviously its wasting my 2-yrs of precious time.i now understanding why his ex-gf,***, will say she feels better & more happy after breaking up with my current bf.i finally know how she had suffered those 3yrs.i bet his ex-gf will be laughing behind my back.probably wishing me "Good LucK". I did what im suppose to do as a gf.i care for him & love him,giving him all i got,neither did i FLIRT nor FLING..but he dont appreciate it.He often asked for a break-up,its me whos the stupid one kept holding on to him not letting him go.i always forgive me.
But this time round,if i still forgive him..i'm really the MOST STUPID girl in this world.
Cause i finally come to senses..seeing the way he treated me..makes me feel a COMPLETE pile of shit.He takes me as a toy,a spare-tyre,a rubbish.Now its different from last time situation.i won't be stupid & soft-hearted like last time.He rather watch Tv,play games,go out with his friends than to talk to me even JUST for 5mins.he doesnt even want to.He cheated me..saying he will call me back.millions & billions of time he said that.NOT even ONCE he did it.i got enough.
Evening,when i call he said he's BUSY playing game & does not want to talk to me 'say will call me back later'. At night, when i cal he said he's BUSY watching TV & does not want to talk to me ' ' . He said AFTER he finish doing his stuff,after enjoying everything than call me.What m i?Your sparetyre??!A rubbish!? a toy?!Will any girl stand their BF like that?its over the limit.i cant take it anymore! He had enjoyed with his friends for 1 whole night & 1 whole day!isnt it enough?!He completely disapear that whole night!leaving me hanging in the air!
I cried 2 tims today.im gona had another swollen eye tomorow.hopefully its the LAST time.my mum was right.she knows what im thinking & how im feeling.She feels hurt seeing me cry like shit all the time as if my BF will knows tt im crying.So what if he knows,he dont care & still says i shedding "CROCRODILE TEARS". its so-called "zi zuo zi shou" in chinese.i know in my heart that actually he dont love me anymore.just plaining sticking to me thats all.Everytime i've to wait for him,wether going out anot..wether meeting anot..bla blah blahh..in the end,he wasted my time.he did not want to go out at all..only tell me at the LAST min.
Anyway,he dont treasure what his GF did for him.He thinks that he's the KING.thinks that "I,Blythe,will DIE without him".Thinks he had got a VERY FALBULOUS charachter that ALL GIRLS are QUEUNING up to be his GF.
Ya,hes right.Carry on with his foolish mindset & quota," Once a playboy,Always a Playboy".Go ahead and make the girls suffer la!!Maybe 1 day i see you in the newspaper about a teenager having AIDS.you are the foolish one now, NOT ME.
Breaking up with you means im smart now.I let you tortured & toyed me for 2yrs+. ITs time to STOP. This 2 yrs,i had never been Happy at all.i didnt recived any presents on ANY of the occasions.not even my BIRTHDAY.theres nothing to keep for memories.but,Nvm.Its ok.
~God Bless Me~