Monday, September 24, 2007
ARGGhhhhhhhhhhhHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i consider very GOOD already ok!! i brough him dinner ALL THE WAY to his house !I called his house untill the phone want burst he never even answer it at all! i went up lucky his mum did not lock it before she went out.i waited so long!!
Of course im angry!he still dare to SHOUT at me for scolding him!? WAT THE FUCK was that!!??
This is all the shit i get in return ?!
FUCK IT!
& right before i was about to go back i went to his room to take a ciggrette. I saw Bubblegums & Dvds.i was wondering why theres all this when he didnt went to JB. then i saw his passport on his table.So i just pick up and see. and i saw a STAMP with "23 September 2007". I was SUPER ANGRY n approach him.he snatch away the passport & contiune eating! i kept asking him & ask him to show me the passport.Cause i knoe this is not the firts time he lie to me..He die die also dont want give it to me.Cause he is SCARED!
Untill this point of time still want to contiune to lie???God sake la..I was angry & sad & kept crying.Cause i felt im SO SILLY to kept trying to believe him & for nothing he always blame me for not trusting him!
LOOK AT WHAT HE HIMSELF DID!!! still got the GUTS to blame me for NOTHING.
He still can say : " i promise myself not to make you cry."
Who give a SHIT!? it was what you fucking did that make me cry alright!!
i dont need to know what you did at JB! all i want to know is how many times you went there without telling me!
12 , 16 ,17 & 23 september 2007 he went JB without telling me! & was lying to me all along!!!
HOW COULD YOU EVER DO THIS FUCK TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!????????????????
TELL ME HOW TO FORGIVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!
WHY cant you just STOP HURTING ME!!!!??
i WILL NEVER EVER FUCKING TURST YOU ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
NO MATTER HOW MANY TIMES U SAY U "swear" & "promised", its all CRAPS & SHIT !!
keep all your FAKE swearings & promises for your future DUMB gfs!!
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
i guess..its better to end this relationship.Obviously its wasting my 2-yrs of precious time.i now understanding why his ex-gf,***, will say she feels better & more happy after breaking up with my current bf.i finally know how she had suffered those 3yrs.i bet his ex-gf will be laughing behind my back.probably wishing me "Good LucK". I did what im suppose to do as a gf.i care for him & love him,giving him all i got,neither did i FLIRT nor FLING..but he dont appreciate it.He often asked for a break-up,its me whos the stupid one kept holding on to him not letting him go.i always forgive me.
But this time round,if i still forgive him..i'm really the MOST STUPID girl in this world.
Cause i finally come to senses..seeing the way he treated me..makes me feel a COMPLETE pile of shit.He takes me as a toy,a spare-tyre,a rubbish.Now its different from last time situation.i won't be stupid & soft-hearted like last time.He rather watch Tv,play games,go out with his friends than to talk to me even JUST for 5mins.he doesnt even want to.He cheated me..saying he will call me back.millions & billions of time he said that.NOT even ONCE he did it.i got enough.
Evening,when i call he said he's BUSY playing game & does not want to talk to me 'say will call me back later'. At night, when i cal he said he's BUSY watching TV & does not want to talk to me ' ' . He said AFTER he finish doing his stuff,after enjoying everything than call me.What m i?Your sparetyre??!A rubbish!? a toy?!Will any girl stand their BF like that?its over the limit.i cant take it anymore! He had enjoyed with his friends for 1 whole night & 1 whole day!isnt it enough?!He completely disapear that whole night!leaving me hanging in the air!
I cried 2 tims today.im gona had another swollen eye tomorow.hopefully its the LAST time.my mum was right.she knows what im thinking & how im feeling.She feels hurt seeing me cry like shit all the time as if my BF will knows tt im crying.So what if he knows,he dont care & still says i shedding "CROCRODILE TEARS". its so-called "zi zuo zi shou" in chinese.i know in my heart that actually he dont love me anymore.just plaining sticking to me thats all.Everytime i've to wait for him,wether going out anot..wether meeting anot..bla blah blahh..in the end,he wasted my time.he did not want to go out at all..only tell me at the LAST min.
Anyway,he dont treasure what his GF did for him.He thinks that he's the KING.thinks that "I,Blythe,will DIE without him".Thinks he had got a VERY FALBULOUS charachter that ALL GIRLS are QUEUNING up to be his GF.
Ya,hes right.Carry on with his foolish mindset & quota," Once a playboy,Always a Playboy".Go ahead and make the girls suffer la!!Maybe 1 day i see you in the newspaper about a teenager having AIDS.you are the foolish one now, NOT ME.
Breaking up with you means im smart now.I let you tortured & toyed me for 2yrs+. ITs time to STOP. This 2 yrs,i had never been Happy at all.i didnt recived any presents on ANY of the occasions.not even my BIRTHDAY.theres nothing to keep for memories.but,Nvm.Its ok.
~God Bless Me~
Monday, September 10, 2007
My BF said he got no money to go out with me yesterday...& said that he doesnt want to go out...ok..fine..but at night..he got the face to tell me hes going out with his FRIENDS for FISHING! i got no wrong being angry right?! He's in fault! He lied to me just because he wanted to save that bloody money to go out with his FRIENDS rather than me?! he dont want to go out with me but went out with his friends?! what the hell he take me as!! im damn pissed off and angry...i really hated it..since he went out & TON, i wont be dumb to stay at home & be a crybaby so i went......(ok,whatever.dont want say about mine too much.) He ton outside the whole night...he didnt even call or sms me AT ALL...isin't it too much!!?? DOES HE NEED 1 WHOLE BLOODY NIGHT TO FISH??!!6.59 in the morning i called him asking where is he..he said he was going back. 10plus i called his hp and its OFF!!WTF.after when his phone was on bad i kept calling..he ans n SHOUTED AT ME. does he got any right to fucking shout at me?! he said hes sleeping at his FRIEND's hse!! Im not so DUMB-FREAK to believe his LIES. ARGhhhhhhhhh!! i called him at 6plus in the evening he FINALLY answer his damn phone & told me he is at HOME. from the minute he went out last night till now he didnt even tell me what hes doing & where he went to!! Wun i get worried?!! i didnt even had a peaceful sleep OK! he DUN EVEN bother to tell me at all!! WHAT KIND OF BF IS HIM! im damn angry right now!!!!!!
He ALWAYS said " I will call you back very fast one".
i waited ..& waited.....& waited ..like a bloody fool...i receive nothing in the end.not even a SIMPLE SMS.
Hes alwayS telling me WHITE LIES just to make me SHUT UP?! sorry..i will NEVER EVER shut up.
He said,"Once a playboy will always be a playboy".
so u think i should WELCOME him or ...what.?
all this are just FUCKING SHIT~
Saturday, August 25, 2007
I really love you..
I really do..
But why you...
Sunday, August 19, 2007
Sunday, August 19, 2007
Saturday, August 18, 2007